Someone asked me once if I thought we could fix the world.

Correct some of the wrongs and broken parts and send it in a direction that would mean better times for future generations.

I told him that I was honestly ambivalent to whether the world got better or worse, or even continued to exist. That I didn’t have a preference and it was largely out of our hands.

He didn’t like that answer.

But then I told him, “Despite all that, I’m still going to show up every day doing my best to leave it better than when I found it.”

I remember he looked at me quite confused and I could feel a logical breakdown of how that was contradictory formulating in his mind. I let him stew a moment longer before I beat him to the line.

“It’s not contradictory to have positive personal intentions and commitments while recognizing the grand scheme of things, and even the scheme above that, and be at peace with it.”

His half open mouth closed as he considered my words.

We spoke for a while after that, digging around in the nuance. I don’t think I convinced him. He’s one of those thousand year timeline sort of guys. If it isn’t fixing a problem now, and one later, and creating zero problems for the next twenty generations it’s not good enough.

I commend that thinking; that spirit.

I think having that sort of passion for life is a good thing and we need people with that level of heart and compassion in this world.

But maybe sharing more about my perspective might help you understand why I do what I do and what Ritualis is here for, among the other various projects and ventures I have going.

It’s a matter of scale, a useful sorting method for digging into these bigger considerations. You’ve got Micro, which would be the personal scale. You’ve got Macro, which would be the global scale. And you’ve got Meso, which would be all the stuff in between. For this particular conversation we also have a Super Macro, which you’ll understand soon.

When he asked me what I felt about changing the world, it was a question about the big side of Meso and the Macro. Changing the culture of how humans operate. Changing the expectations, the values, and the guiding principles of entire countries if not the world. This is the place that government plays along side hidden government and international corporations. The scale of agency here -power to make changes- is massive. It is also the level where generational culture moves.

You can get all of Europe opting in to recycling within a generation of time but you cannot get Germans to stop speaking German in half a dozen. You cannot get people to give up their cars. Some things are rooted deep. They’ve got mass and momentum and you don’t turn them around over night.

At the bigger Meso and the Macro, you’ve got these big actors and you’ve got these big formations. Mountains of cultural gravity. A lot of stuff, feelings, ideas, customs, habits, and ideas all piled into one place. You either need a lot of power to change them, or a lot of people involved.

Still, that’s no reason to throw in the towel at the start. With enough people we can indeed move mountains.

I considered this for a long time.

My father has always been into recycling. Even now, he know where it all really goes, and he does it anyways.

I remember when we were teens, he used to volunteer at a golf tournament in our city. He loved golf, wanted to watch, would rather be helpful than just stand there for hours. The first year he volunteered they assigned him to garbage duty. Drive the cart around, empty the cans, replace the bags, drop the full ones off, repeat. Watch some golf in the middle.

My dad has always been an immensely determined and hard worker. He worked at intel as a software engineer and he went 5 sometimes six days a week, every week, for decades. Can’t stop him. Not because he’s some sort of super hero. He’s a fairly normal guy (except the part where he sees ghosts and feels energy but that’s another story). He’s unstoppable because he just sticks his nose to the grind and keeps going.

So you can imagine, when a man who has been devoted to recycling his whole life arrives at the tournament and finds out they’re selling bottled and canned beverages with absolutely no recycling to speak of, he simply could not ignore it.

My dad spent the entire tournament on a very different mission.

He would fish out all of the cans and bottles from the trash and put them in a separate bag before tying off the garbage and taking it away. He did this non stop for 3 days. The next year he volunteered again on the condition that he could organize and run the recycling program.

I remember those years. We had stockpiles of huge commercial grade garbage bags, folded up cardboard box cans with golf course logos on them. He stored the equipment in our garage to be sure it would be there for the next tournament. My memory is hazy but I think he did this two years in a row before it stuck and they created a recycling center in their maintenance buildings.

My dad’s commitment to what he knows is right is a grand example of what it means to commit to something at the Micro level regardless of the results.

Can he be sure any of those cans actually turned into new cans? No.
Did he change the world above the mid Meso level? No.
Is there any Macro impact here? No.

He’s not stupid.
He knows this.

But he did it anyways.

Now you might be thinking, “But Kedrik if enough of us commit we CAN change the Macro!”

Maybe so! I am not suggesting we can’t. There are big actors with other plans and a lot of mountains to move but anything is genuinely possible. And this is where the Super Macro comes in.

If you didn’t know already, I’ve been a meditation practitioner for 25 years. I’ve practiced a dozen forms of meditation and mindfulness and taught half of them. I’ve studied the esoteric, the divine, and the non ordinary in general for nearly as long. I’ve had small NDEs and experiences that unlocked parts of e and opened my eyes that can’t be closed.

This is what I came here to do.

As a result, I don’t think on single generation timelines anymore either, but not in the way that my friend from the beginning does. I love and respect him, and the native American culture of considering seven generations forward and back with all impactful decisions. But my experiences, dare I say my past lives, give me a different perspective.

At the super macro we’re not just talking in generations, that’s really on the big side of Macro. No, we’re talking about eons. We’re talking about the scale of the universe itself, everything in it, and reincarnation. We’re talking about the higher planes of existence and the fact that outside of this bubble of reality, the game is very different. Linear time doesn’t even exist.

At that level, one I have had the great honor to glimpse many times this life, the Earth is a blip in the story. Whether we save everyone from apocalypse -let alone recycle that bottle- is inconsequential. The planet formed and will be gone in a flash from the perspective of those higher planes outside of the rules of this place.

From what I know, the true purpose of this place is for souls to fully individuate into a unique, one of a kind environment and have experiences. Good. Bad. Memorable. Mundane. No matter what we do here, on the other side it’s back to the higher orders of existence and a good story. It’s a step in a very long journey of individuation and actualization.

In that regard, it really and truly doesn’t matter if the planet is better in a thousand years, or even if it’s here. The motivations and missions down here are only for here.

From the vantage of this place that’s a sad way to see things and will upset a lot of people.

From the vantage of your higher self or your complete soul, it’s just the truth. Plain and simple.

From those higher places it is as easy to make a new Earth -a new universe- as it is to get into the muck of reality and change it moment by moment.

Knowing that, when I look at the Macro and all of it’s Meso actors tugging at the strings, it is very clearly not worth the effort. In fact it is a distraction. The world is a tug of war rope and everyone is so into it they have forgotten where they came from.

That’s ok.

That’s part of the experience for some souls as well. I leave them to it and hold no judgment or criticism for the folks who think it matters more than anything else. In actuality, if a soul believes, in the moment, that it matters, then it does. Who am I to judge what your soul came here to do?

Definitely not.

So I leave the world to it’s devices. It might become utopia or dystopian hell. It might get better, worse, or stay exactly the same. This is the playground of material reality in which souls come to experience. Any of those versions is still a playground. Just like the games we play, there’s a theme and for a bit of time we get into it. The rules of basketball do not apply while driving a car but when you’re on the court, that’s the whole world.

You might be wondering then, why I do anything I do, say what I say, offer my support, write about self mastery and actualization. Why I encourage the optimistic and debate with the curmudgeons. Why I care at all instead of enjoying a peaceful life as a monk in a monastery somewhere you’ll never find.

Honestly I think about it from time to time.

But there’s a spark I can feel within me. A thread to a higher self that pulses with a knowing.

Do I expect to change the world? Not in the slightest.

Do I need to leave a legacy? Not at all.

But while I’m here, do I have my own soul’s desire for a particular experience? Absolutely yes.

I came here this round to see for far I can push self mastery, always a process. I came here to actualize and explore. I came here for all of the things that the mainstream has forgotten. I came here to hone Instinct, see the world, and have the sort of fun you cannot have anywhere else in existence. I came here to be my best self, and part of that is offering a hand to those who like the sound of that game.

This body and being has a way with alchemy and subtle energy. He has a way with object energetics.

So I created Ritualis Jewelry to make object that defy logic, and in some cases even defy the classical esoteric understanding of the materials I use. These objects can and do help people on their journey. Is it for everyone? No. is it for the people who want to become the best version of themselves, or at least better than they are now? Yes.

This body and being, this Kedrik, also has a way with coaching and mentorship. There’s an aura about him that not only sets a tone of excellence but naturally lifts people up to their next step. Often it happens without my doing anything. Sometimes it happens through conversations and support.

So I created Kedrik Winter Wolf Coaching to provide a space in the private domain where individuals could get help from someone who not only understands the tools and the rules but how to use them efficiently and bend them when needed. It’s not a recurring for the rest of time sort of service so much as a hot seat dojo where you can get a huge leg up on your current mission.

And beyond those formal offerings I am available for the actualization of potential. For the realization of Self. I’m here for the souls that came here to see the other side of this material world. To peak through the veil of the 3d into everything else this bubble has to offer.

Do I expect to change the world? No, but we might.

Do I intend to change the trajectory of good souls for the better and be the karmic ping they need to launch into the next part of their story? Hell yes.

The world might end in a nuclear flash or a slow march to mundane collapse, I genuinely don’t care. I like the idea of a utopia, or a world that thinks 9 generations in every direction, but we’ve got that on the outside already.

I’m here for whatever it is right now.

I’m here to be here.

And I am here to support you in your own life.

How we do that is really up to you. If you feel the ping, but not the knowing, it can’t hurt to have a conversation.